I guess I should say Wedding Blessing Ceremony Blues. And it’s not so much the “blues” as it is just plain procrastination. And it really makes no sense. Am I excited to celebrate our big day again? Of course! Am I excited to see all of our friends and family? Definitely! Am I loving the process of planning all of it? Um…no.

I always thought I would love planning my wedding. And maybe I would have if things had happened a little more normally. I never thought I would know the day of my wedding only two weeks beforehand. I never pictured myself planning my big day over a year after we actually got married and doing it from another country. But life has a way of being unpredictable.

So now I’m going to try to psychoanalyze myself to figure out why I’m not having much fun with all of this. 🙂 Bear with me. I do much better saying/typing things “out loud” than mulling things over in my head.

Theory #1: I’m already married, so putting all this time and effort into a ceremony is silly.
Well, I certainly know that nothing is going to change after our ceremony: we already did all the paperwork, I already changed my name, and we already live together. I am excited for “real” wedding photos though. I’ll always love the photos we have of our actual wedding day, but everything went so fast that day so the celebration was short-lived.

It all went pretty fast. Then we went out to lunch with our parents, and my parents headed out to drive back to Tennessee right after that. Very brief celebration! So I’m glad we’re actually having a big celebration this June.

Theory #2: I have always been and will always be a big procrastinator.
This may be the more likely reason. I’ve always been a perfectionist, but I’ve also always put things off until the last minute. The two really shouldn’t go together, but apparently it’s pretty common. I want things to be perfect for our wedding blessing and the reception, but I don’t want to deal with planning it because it might not be perfect. Make sense? Haha.

Theory #3: Absence makes the mind forgetful.
Out of sight, out of mind. I never drive past the place where we’re having the ceremony or reception. I don’t live in the area anymore. So there really aren’t reminders that I have less than 3 months to get my act together. Plus all the big things were taken care of months ago (over a year ago for some things!), and while the little things are generally the things I enjoy the most, I feel a little out of control being thousands of miles away. There are certain things that really will be taken care of at the last minute, since I’ll be doing it that week before the wedding (programs & place cards, for example) after we have arrived in Wisconsin.

So, any thoughts, friends & family? I’m guessing it’s probably a combination of all three of my theories. And I’m sure I’m not dealing with certain things because I’m subconsciously upset that I’m not in control of everything. I didn’t get to go with my sisters to watch them try on bridesmaid dresses. I don’t get to be with my mom and mother-in-law pick out their dresses. I’m delegating tasks to friends and family so I don’t use up my international phone minutes. Yes, I’m a control freak. I have issues. 🙂

I guess it’s time to haul out my Martha Stewart wedding planning binder again so I can see what tasks are overdue. I’m not looking forward to playing catch-up, but I know I need to just get it done. Please send positive vibes my way to encourage me to stop procrastinating and focus on what needs to get done!

I haven’t posted anything in awhile again — sorry, everyone! I never feel like we’re particularly busy, but neither Andrew nor I ever seem to have a lack of things to do in our free time. Andrew recently finished his CDCs (career development courses), which all new airmen complete at their first base. He was happy to complete them in only 5 months, and he got a great score! He will be receiving an award for his score in the near future — I am so proud of him!

Since Andrew is no longer devoting all of his spare time to studying, he has had time to start his big project: the garden. When Andrew lived with our friend Jeremy, he was given a row in Jeremy’s garden to plant some tomatoes. For those of you who don’t know Andrew really well, you should know that when Andrew gets involved in a hobby, he goes into it with 100% enthusiasm. What I mean by that is that he will spend hours researching things, he will read all kinds of books, articles, and blogs about the topic, and he will put any necessary time into it. Now that we are in a house (instead of an apartment) with enough room for a small garden, Andrew is excited to put his research into practice!

He has his little seeds planted in the conservatory already. The warmer weather has made our conservatory pretty toasty — perfect for those baby plants! While those are getting started, Andrew has started tackling the plot of land he would like to use as the garden.

This patch of grass is enclosed in our patio, which is kind of cool. Andrew measured out his rows so he could have aisles of grass to walk on between them. Lots of hard work went into digging up the sod here!

You can see the first few rows there, and the grass dug up on the last couple of rows.

Andrew’s perfect rows. 🙂 Now he’s working on sifting through the dirt. He’s found quite a bit of gravel in it, plus random things (glass, plastic, even a small wrench!). It’s been a tedious process for him. I go out to bring him snacks & water, and the weather has been nice enough that I bring a chair out and crochet while he works.

That’s one thing I like about us: we have very different hobbies, but we like doing them together. Even when we’re doing separate things, we prefer to be in the same vicinity. We barely even talked when he was digging and I was crocheting, but it was still nice to spend time together.

Hopefully my next update on Andrew’s garden will have pictures of little plants growing outside. I’m excited to document this first go at gardening…and to have some yummy fresh veggies this summer! I have lots of recipes that call for tomatoes and zucchini, but we’ll have to wait and see what does well and what we have a surplus of as the months go. I’ll keep you posted!