Wedding Blues

I guess I should say Wedding Blessing Ceremony Blues. And it’s not so much the “blues” as it is just plain procrastination. And it really makes no sense. Am I excited to celebrate our big day again? Of course! Am I excited to see all of our friends and family? Definitely! Am I loving the process of planning all of it? Um…no.

I always thought I would love planning my wedding. And maybe I would have if things had happened a little more normally. I never thought I would know the day of my wedding only two weeks beforehand. I never pictured myself planning my big day over a year after we actually got married and doing it from another country. But life has a way of being unpredictable.

So now I’m going to try to psychoanalyze myself to figure out why I’m not having much fun with all of this. 🙂 Bear with me. I do much better saying/typing things “out loud” than mulling things over in my head.

Theory #1: I’m already married, so putting all this time and effort into a ceremony is silly.
Well, I certainly know that nothing is going to change after our ceremony: we already did all the paperwork, I already changed my name, and we already live together. I am excited for “real” wedding photos though. I’ll always love the photos we have of our actual wedding day, but everything went so fast that day so the celebration was short-lived.

It all went pretty fast. Then we went out to lunch with our parents, and my parents headed out to drive back to Tennessee right after that. Very brief celebration! So I’m glad we’re actually having a big celebration this June.

Theory #2: I have always been and will always be a big procrastinator.
This may be the more likely reason. I’ve always been a perfectionist, but I’ve also always put things off until the last minute. The two really shouldn’t go together, but apparently it’s pretty common. I want things to be perfect for our wedding blessing and the reception, but I don’t want to deal with planning it because it might not be perfect. Make sense? Haha.

Theory #3: Absence makes the mind forgetful.
Out of sight, out of mind. I never drive past the place where we’re having the ceremony or reception. I don’t live in the area anymore. So there really aren’t reminders that I have less than 3 months to get my act together. Plus all the big things were taken care of months ago (over a year ago for some things!), and while the little things are generally the things I enjoy the most, I feel a little out of control being thousands of miles away. There are certain things that really will be taken care of at the last minute, since I’ll be doing it that week before the wedding (programs & place cards, for example) after we have arrived in Wisconsin.

So, any thoughts, friends & family? I’m guessing it’s probably a combination of all three of my theories. And I’m sure I’m not dealing with certain things because I’m subconsciously upset that I’m not in control of everything. I didn’t get to go with my sisters to watch them try on bridesmaid dresses. I don’t get to be with my mom and mother-in-law pick out their dresses. I’m delegating tasks to friends and family so I don’t use up my international phone minutes. Yes, I’m a control freak. I have issues. 🙂

I guess it’s time to haul out my Martha Stewart wedding planning binder again so I can see what tasks are overdue. I’m not looking forward to playing catch-up, but I know I need to just get it done. Please send positive vibes my way to encourage me to stop procrastinating and focus on what needs to get done!